The Confession

80s

2011-10-19T03:25:00.000-07:00

blog ini sudah lama tidak ditulis kerana kekeliruan connection oleh wifi alzahrawi , and now its in its stable form , which is laju drpd people could ever imagine , thank god , :) tp tgok mood dye jgk la. kalao da beratus org on9 memang 'tak' lambat la kn ?
im speechless , i have no idea what to story , saya sudah 18 thun ,yes semua org pun tahu , skrg aku mcm thrilled dgn 80s fashion because of the bravery shown of people in tht era to fashion . im going to start wearing neon , leathers , dancewear , cut-outs and shoulder pads . :)

but as uall knw i went to a nerdy-college , so i supposed to hold my desire of fashion fr less than 1 year , but i still get things done with it by wearing what it should to be in 1980s but not 100% of it , :"(

this is sort of things found in 8os . :)

MATRIK MATRIK .

2011-07-05T22:54:00.000-07:00

sgt stress apabila org akan bertanya kpd aku , "eh mana baju kemeja kao"? okey fine . smart apa aku pki kemeja , aku tau la korang jeles semua kan , ahaha , daripada korang tu pakai tshirt je pg kelas mcm sial je , mcm nak pg karok je , ahahhaa , pakai la shantek shantek skit kn , kn ?
btw , aku kt sini lain cerita pulak , kalao dah pki cantik cantik tak boleh pulak ! nak GLAMOR skit pun tak boleh , orang kt sini semua MENGANJING aku sebab aku cantik sgt pakai nye , aku dah penat la , aku pg mana mana buat apa pun mesti ade je yg nak kondem aku ! EFF! fashion fashion skit pun tak boleh myampah btul la aku , semua org kt sini skema skema badut ! ala nnty aku pg universiti (insyaAllah) pun sama jugak kan ! aku ni ha memang pelik , sgt pelik , lain daripada yg lain ! ahahha , nak buat mcm mana kan !

walau mcm mana pun , matrik sgt tough ! aku penat laaa , , , hari hari stress , matrik ouh matrik selamat kao satu tahun jela ,,,

SABA JELA EH . . .

AJ

2011-06-30T06:05:00.000-07:00

sy berada di suatu tempat yg sgt menakutkn , dimana saya bangun pagi dan melakukan aktiviti yg sama dan makanan yg sama sepanjang hari . say juga terpaksa berjumpa dgn ribuan orgg , sy dlm ketakutan , ,
words tht describe the whole thing ,

EFF , , STRESS , , IMMH . tq

p/s : i got new frineds btw .

old people .

2011-05-13T23:52:00.000-07:00

im gonna turn 18 by this upcoming june . i hate the sound of tht ~~"18"~~ stuff . people r going crazy with it , but i seriously hate it damn much .

again after years go by , i have still to continue on living . n yes i have to further study like normal people. aku dpt tawaran matriks kt johor . i aint got no choice , be there is the solution to keep on reaching the cita cita tht i have thought before . saya mau dpt 4flat , krn sy sgt kecewa dgn spm result sy ! -shit. i hate saying it . so . STUDY HARD WORK HARD , ~~no more study smart~~ . there is lack of excellent in it ! be stronggg people. . . fighting !

on the spot !

2011-04-05T00:08:00.000-07:00

haritu aku jalan jalan kt JAYA JUSCO (wgsa maju) sbb aku suro jaq turun kn aku kt situ lepas aku check scholarship. kalau kita pg JJ kita msti terus pg ke MPH bookstore btol tk kwn kwn ? aku masuk aku tgok dkt "new release" section ada a book yg da lama aku nak sejak time aku f5 lg . aku tgok covering colour da tuka dan setelah aku amati , WOW , its in fully malay ! jd aku tros beli . it was a second version of it .

ni ha buku dye , title = ROJAK

aku kagum dgn kebolehan aku kerana aku sgt tgkas , keesokan harinya aku sudah abes mmbaca ! ahaha , cepat uolss . ia sebuah buku yg menghimpunkan koleksi cerita cerita pndek(certot) ,bukan cerita pasal variety of rojak(makanan) oke, for summary : the story was magnifficent , fun about life , sex , money and other malaysian things ! aku enjoy reading it , u should read it !

jauhkan buku ini daripada kanak-kanak 15 tahun kebawah . ianya sgt bahaya !

SORRY >>

2011-03-14T22:44:00.000-07:00

i have no idea why people these days realy hating me tht much ? i do nothing to them , instead im always talking tht nice to them . but why they hate me so much ? mungkin aku sendiri yg terlepas bicara atau anything yg myakitkn hati dorang kn ? kalau aku ckp skit je msti nak melenting , mcm kene cocok ponggong , kalau kao mengutuk aku boleh pulak kn ?? kata aku KAWAN dgn org ni tk hebat la apa laaa, aku pedulik apa nk kwn dgn siapa pun ! kawan kawan kao mcm hebad sgt ! tgok mcm BLUR BLUR sokmo je , ingt cntek , tp tak pun kan ! haih laaa , tu la ckp abah dulu-dulu aku tknk dga , abah selalu ckp ; "MAT , jgn selalu kawan dgn pompuan , awak tu lelaki , ingt sama ke barang tu" . yes abah ! mamat myesal , btul ckp abh kdg-kdg . walaupun mamat memang suka bergaduh dgn abah , tp bende ni abah betul . aku nak ckp pun tk guna dahh ! semua da berlaku . it happens too quick ! aku da delete org org yg aku tk suka di FB ! tq ! :) walau apa pun aku seribu kali nk MINTAK MAAF kpd sesiapa yg aku penah saketkn hati atau tak suka dgn cara aku ! im nt tht perfect , im sorry

p/s : aku tgok cerita SANTAU KERAMAT mlm td , tu la aku terpanggil nk mintak maaf dgn korang ! :(

OUTING - away from fobia manners .

2011-03-07T23:11:00.000-08:00

huh ! this is so last years !!
sorry baby , da lama tk update blog sbb my internet connection seems bad these days ! i dont knw why , aku rasa sebab tk byr lg kot ! BB kan ! ofcos la kn . .

on last saturday , 5 MARCH , JAQ ajak aku klua , (eh actually aku yg ajak dye, haha) , sebab aku nak lari dri fobia kelua rumah yg aku suffer slame bbrp bulan ne ! aku ingt nak ajak dye tgok black swan , sebab tgok trailer mcm gmpk en , i dont like la stuff yg cintan cintun -mcm LAGENDA BUDAK SETAN , and all . -sorry . i like movie yg cerita psl life , science fiction and action ! ahahaha , komedi ? bole laaa. hehe . lepas aku mndi je aku tgok hp ada 6 miskol , 2 msg , pastu ada call lg , aku pun angkat ; "weh kitorg da smpai ruma kao" jaq ckp , aku pulak ckp " jap jap aku baru lepas mndi" ahaha , aku tk sempat nak siap in proper sebab dorang da lama tggu , aku pki topi je sebab rmbut aku sial . i need 1 HOUR to settle tht stuff . brr . aku tgok kt lua mana ada kete . adik sedara aku ckp "ada ABG LONG nk cek lampu, adam tkut" ahaha. lawak je . sat lg aku klua tgok laaaaa naek van rupenye , aha best weh naek van pg tgok wyg ! *ABG LONG = LAKI JAQ ! sial je .

da smpai di pggung wyg , mcm biase la aku tk kn dpt la kn nk tgok black swan krn jaq tk mau cerita itu , jd kita sepakat nk tgok I AM NUMBER FOUR (yg ada DIANNA AGRON tu) , memang best la cerita tu . korang should watch it , hebadd kot . wyg pun penuh cerita tu , huh ! tk sia sia aku ikot ckp betina tu ! ahha, lepas tu kitorg lepak lepak laa, lepas tu teringin nk karaoke pulak . ahahah , seronok kot kwn dgn mmber jaq semua , krn dorg semua suka menyanyi ! ahahahah , kemana saja menyanyi ! ahahh . lawak lawak je.

lepas tu org rmi tau nak tggu karaoke tu . kitorg pun pg la kelua lepak kt mamak kan , tba tba tesermpak pulak pelakon KLIK . AMANDA tu sebok begayut gayut dgn REDWAN , ala abg hot tu , plakon klik tu jgk ! tkda la tggi sgt , stakat aku je ! hahah -sial molot aku .mereka pun pg karok jugak ! tk thn aku ! ahahah.

oke la penat la aku nak menaip . ahah , lepas tu aku pun balik ruma dlm kol 11 pm . seronok , tp dlm kpl otak aku asek tefikir satu bnde ni jeee , tp aku diamkn dlu la. bile da smpai ruma aku aku bg rm10 kt jaq . ahah , lepas tu dye mara aku tau ! ahahah lawak je kao . aku balek ruma , aku tekejut krn akak aku bukak pintu dan rmbut dye lurus je (lps rebonding kot) ahah . bodo bodo je.

p/s : aku bg jaq duet sbb selama satu hari aku kelua tu aku tk klua kn duet satu sen pun , suma abg blnje , fuh ! THANK YOUUUUUUU , suka aku la. nnty klua lg eh ! ahahah

O MY GUCCI .

2011-02-19T20:44:00.000-08:00

NEW SHOES

i had a discussion with my ZAHI this day and he told me tht he bought a new shoes . then he show me the one that he bought . what a SPORTY , i dont prefer tht stuff .so, what messing with my mind is "wo. i just need new shoes too" ahah . since i already not shop for shoes quite a long time . last shoes i bought was 3 years ago. last year i just bought a typicall korean shoes(like a slipper with huge fronts) n a england-branded crocs .
so then i start google what shoes i interested the most . later i found it n just copy the link to let ZAHI saw it .
he said nothing to it , ahahaah . what a guy ! tk romantik lgsg ! :)
ini antara yg i suka :

these 2(with the one in yellow has come in same brand)

ni yg paling sukaaaaaaa ! :)

heheh. i told my sister straight away after i told ZAHI . then my sister also claims tht the above blue one is the coolest . then she said , "copy la mat gmba dye , mana tau jmpe kat danau nnty" . =.='
apa laaa. tau la abg ipar saya tu berniaga di downtown ! ahahha

according to the shoes :

first expresion : wow ! (excited- mata bersinar-sinar)

second expression : i want thisssssssss ! (byk-byk) sigh"

expression seterusnya : alamak bila laaa nak ada duit nee . ahahaha :)

*terlalu sedih kerana saya sudah lama tidak membeli belah disebbkn masalah keluarga saya yg tak sudah ! saya perlu byk berdoa , dn mengatakan "ini hanya sementara" :'(

p/s : sayanampaksajaceriatetapitiadasiapatahuakanrealiti :)

THAT SHOESSSS = wait for me haaa

in other word : ANOTHER ANOREXIC !

2011-02-18T01:32:00.000-08:00

huh !
now its official that i commit anorexia . i have no idea why i being just fine like this , i hate seeing my tummy n scars on mirror of mine. it was very frustrating seeing myself big-sized body . kwn kwn i semua ckp u oke u kurus , but i dont see it myself ! i want some skin i want some tulang it was very shameful to walk down along the streets with thisssss . when my friends begging me for outing . i would say *NO . MALAS . but actually i have no guts to it . im sorry ,

*an anorexic in united states of america - a model

i live in fear now , i wont eat anything , it feels like i eat millions of calories in every plate of simple dish like fish n all . what am i afraid of is i dont want to be that huge . i dont want to let people saw me in this huge . aritu jmpe my scandal . he says : gemuknya kauuu . O MY gucci . i have to keep on doing YOGA n all but it is still not enough . doakn i walau apa pun i hope it doesn't turn out into a complete disaster like above picture . . i just need more skinnnnn :(

huh ! i could die if i keep on with this idea , help me !

NAH ! i no longer to be called SCHOOL BOY .

2011-02-13T01:28:00.000-08:00

what they expect from me is neither than im younger than 16 . They wish i have been this sick aged 30 form everlasting hell . huh ! what r they ?? i have some occasion to be shared with you .
*last WEEK . *When i down to buy some evening stuff to eat : sy bertanya : "hum, bagi cendawan goreng tu rm2 ". sesudah itu , BUDAK itu pun bertanya kpd sy lg : nak apa lagi BANG ?? . Mak aih ! tue sgt ke aku ? dye mcm budak sgt ?? ahahha . this kinda incident has driven me off . that is not the first but its actually the second times ! ahah , what a life .

ive been starving like hell since i'd already graduated my high school . i eat "less" than ever . the most eaten : ROTI CANAI . duh ! i weighed nearly 60 by now . Probably its just a scale problem , im not tht FAT !!
tetapi itu tetap sebuah fakta yg tdk dpt diterima scr psikologi mahupun rohani aku yg sejati . sometimes terasa nak commit ANEROXIA or BULEMIA . *i already did ! (3 hri je, tk thnnnnnnnn) wek !

apa apa pun rasa seronok bila da abes skola . SERIOUSLY !!!! I'M FREEEEEEEEE PEOPLE ! aha .
mcm BIDIN tye aku : best sgt ke dah abes skola? . ahaha mcm EJAT ckp pulak : yeah , wan da abes skola . best gleerr kan . ahaha . tp aku still dont know what to do . i have an idea to have a work . but , idts ! its impossible . -tak payah ckp pasal tu da-benciiiiiiiii-

apa apa pun result SPM kne tggu jgk ! pnat ouh . buat seremmm aje , tp mcm AYIEM ckp : "tak paya nak difikirkan sgt spm tu , bnde da lepas , kan da jwb da pun , jgn nak ditakutkan sgt , baek happy happy skrg nnty masa kua result tk dpt nak happy sebab ada org lain lg happy , mana la tahu kan ? " hehe .
i love him ! ahhaah . btul jugak tu ! sebuah perangsang smangat aku ! ahhah ,

apa apa pun aku nak smbung blaja amek psikologi no matter what my ABAH said . wee. thats my passion , kerana aku terpaksa melupakan FLIGHT ATTENDANT ! ! :"(

ahahah , till then . tq krn mmbca. kamsa hamnida !
SARANGHEYO .

saya BUDAK baik

2010-11-06T19:30:00.001-07:00

saya nak ckp satu benda ni ,
nak ckp benda ni sahaja dekat awak .
benda ni saja tau ,
dengar baik-baik tau ,
saya nak ckp ni dekat awak,
pasal benda ni saja .
benda ni saja tau

oke bye :)

azfar ?

2010-05-29T07:36:00.000-07:00

saye bersamaan kawan-kawan gay saye, ahha ! :) pergi berjalan-jalan, selepas saye break dgn #5%&*, saye terserempak dgn org muke mcm dye, saye berkate, eh ?? mcm ?? -whatev. da la ketinggian pun lebih kurang kan ? mesti la saye musykil, mungkin saye angau lg kot ! yang paling penting setiap kali saye pergi mane-mane mesti saye rase mcm tu. dekat masjid pun, ahha. :)

pesanan penaja : saye blk lewat mlm haritu, abah saye marah sebab saye asyik membeli baju dan seluar sahaja ! ngoi. :))

the word.

2010-03-16T03:23:00.000-07:00

word that describe the whole thing.
so, the title is the title.
theres nothing else to compare.
:)

SEKOLAH ?? . . .

2009-12-25T08:14:00.000-08:00

pakcik zahadi bkn maen excited lg membeli baju sekolah saye awl2 bute pd awl disember ! saye berkate : waddefak ? abah nnty mamat makin kurus la, beli la lmbt skit ! takut besa la. :( (haha kurus ke aku !) grr. pakcik zahadi pon membalas : ahh, bile lg nak beli.? lalu aku pasrah dan membeli. kemudian tetibe aku rase excited pulak nak pg skola ! bkn nak blaja tao. tapi nak pakai brg baru ! hahah, mat..mat.. kate spm nak 10 ? apalaa. menurut pakcik zahadi. kemasukan tusyen saye tidak diluluskan . . jd saye harus belajar sendiri ! walaopun add math saye mendapat markah " plg tggi" di dlm kelas ! aduyai ! haha, seperti kata-kata mereka yg sudah berusia n da nak mampos da pon : usaha tangga kejayaan, bkn depends on the tuition itself ? err, aku bnci rojak ! perosak bahase btol! gaga. sebenarnye, aku da letih la nak pg skola ! penat sgt ! rase mcm nak beranak je ari2 kalu pg skola ! haha, penat meneran anak ! grr. da la taun spm pulak tuh ! aiyoh, stress la bile dga spm nihh ! bnci..bnci..bnci. haha lgpun kalu pg skola ade la mende nak buat selain mkn, tido, mkn, tido. cuti2 ni aku pg dance lesson jea ! aku da katam menari sorry sorry da pon ! haha :) whatever. nak ke sekolah sebab nak jmpe "rkn-rkn" aku . . -
- alia fana - myra - amoy - 'adilah - afiza - selina - ain - qis - aina - izat - masso (haritu aku jmpe dye kat kedai buku, xD )

p/s : saye menonton suju (super junior) dan saye meminati donghae. ;X
haha, tade kene-mengena ! peace. :)

VICE VERSA.

2009-12-15T06:40:00.000-08:00

what makes u really think u're kind ? it was up to u then to describe the whole thing ! i got no friend. ya, i was.(fullstop) so, stop talking to me if u're think that i am a psycho. because i am a troublemaker !! being sarcastic is the best way of judging people towards weaknesses. i think it is the start of a new beginning, for sure u also did that way, dont u ? shut up if u say never ! i dont want to back to the same old scene, which had turned into completed history. what's going on with the thing that u already screwed up ? is that going to be something to learn after or just messing with the game ? Auh ! i am really frustrated according to that above matter. i dont want to be blue or even pink ! i would just in between of them like the green-yellowish kind of color that really turning me into something else that no one could imagine. the revenge is just about to start, wait till i was there. u'll be sorry for it !

theres no way to pull the title above. because its just a title.

THE REPLIED (HQ)

2009-11-30T08:59:00.000-08:00

well,
im not actually being sarcastic or whatever that thought so. im not searching for the answer, i was looking for the question !!! so, what on earth you thought you are ? "am-i-wrong", and all that stuff which were very embarrasing, i just let myself through out up to this matter, but you know, im not the one who had an opinion. its u ! wake up my dear. theres no more 'awak-kite', no more 'playing with barbie doll'. just grow up then.

my dad always told me that everbody on this earth are not that good in friendship. well, i guessed its true. it was really true !! i'm tired of waiting the bla-bla matter which u're gonna say then. i'm tired to be nice at every distance of figures. and sometimes i'd been tired of talking to others with that lacks of confident that i always suffer on. it was because of u, u know !!!!

forgiveness is the easiest way of solving every problem. but u know, what he'd been suffer on after that ? just god only knew that. are u gonna say i'm a bitch ? well, i say before u, I AM A BITCH !!! i would say no after this to everyone. with the smile that i always been on to cheer up people was just worthless ! i repeat ; WORTHLESS ! u got it !

been a way from time was a waste, im not gonna be such an idiot. who cares what u'd said just then, it only words that described the elements. i never had good friends, i keep searching it till death ! but now i'm tired of searching it. come on la. i surrender up to that. i like myself to be alone, but sometimes i need friends to talk with. this feeling is undefined ! it would never ends, and thats im gonna faced la. x(

i'll keep saying to myself ; " tomorrow is better than yesterday "
i'll keep holding the sentence till now !

im sorry if u're in trouble

SIKAP ANDA.

2009-11-22T02:51:00.000-08:00

saya benci dgn hidup saya di sekolah,

ada kalanya saya terasa seperti tidak punya kawan. bila kemana tidak pernah ajak saya melainkan tidak ada siapa disitu selain diriku. saya tidak percaya prinsip2 seperti, BFF (bestfriend forever) , dan sespesiesnya yang lain. whatever. saya juga terasa dimana saya seolah-olah menempel saja kepada mereka, dimana mereka tidak pernah menghargai diriku dan mengendahkan saya, seperti saya tidak wujud. bila berjalan tidak pernah lambai kepada saya tetapi lambai kepada kwn yg disebelah. err. sungguh 'mengharukan'. ada juga saya terasa seperti tidak dilayan sama sekali. ada kawan saya mengatakan bahawa "..eh tak layak la aku dok ngn geng dorg kalau result teruk cmni.."

waddehel ? siapa 'geng2' kao tu ? #$#, ^&%@, ^%* ?? GITU LA, nak yang pandai aje. teserlah sifat perkauman anda ! saya tidak suka org sebegitu, memilih kawan. saya tahu la saya tidak cantik menarik lagi hensem serta menawan juga pandai dan bijak. err. mungkin ini la suratan takdir yang tertulis sejak azali lagi untuk saya. ini la padahnya suka berkawan dgn sekawan wanita2 yang...(ko sambung la sendiri)... saya juga tidak suka sikap2 rakan2 saya..(rakan ke?).. yang suka tidak ambil endah berkenaan hal2 sekeliling, lebih2 lagi di dalam kelas. mereka tdk seperti bs1, bs1 yg lain. yg biasanya mengungguli carta kelas tebersih, hari2 saya dtg ke sekolah msk dlm kelas, kelihatan terdapat pelbagai sampah bergelimpangan di atas lantai tanpa ada seorang murid yang prihatin utk membersihkannya. kelas saya semakin betambah parah apabila datangnya faktor2 yg lain, seperti sabotaj dan angin. err. mereka dtg2 saja tanpa segan-silu terus ke meja dan duduk di atas kerusi masing2. ini adalah sesuatu yang memalukan. lebih-lebih lagi majaoriti anak2 dalam kelas itu adalah wanita ! pandai sahaja lebih tetapi tidak punya kematangan. saya terasa lebih terpinggir apabila mereka tidak mempercayakan saya, saya juga tidak mahu bercerita tentang hal2 peribadi kerana rasakan mereka tidak mahu mendengarnya. mereka tidak pernah mengambil tahu berkenaan saya, tetapi org lain..yes ! malang nasib saya, kenapa masa zaman kecil2 dulu saya tidak diberi hidayah untuk berkawan dengan lelaki. saya ada banyak kawan lelaki di myspace dan saya rasa sgt teruja dan selesa, saya juga punya teman wanita, dan saya lebih teruja. saya tidak sabar untuk habiskan sekolah kerana saya tidak larat lagi menanggung derita di seri keramat. lihatlah gambar di bwh..(benci)

*hari2 saya bangun, lalu pandang ke luar tingkap, dan mengharapkan ada kawan yang sejati akan tiba.

2009-10-23T22:56:00.000-07:00

" a few questions that i need to know ! how u could ever hurt me so ? i need to know what i've done wrong, and how long it's been going on.. was it that i never paid enough attention.. or did i not give enough affection, not only will your answer keep me same, but i'll know never to make the same mistake again.
you can tell me to my face,
or even on the phone,
you can write in the letter,
either way i have to know...
did i never treat you right ? did i always start the fight. either way i'm going out of my mind, all the answers to my questions i have to find.....

my head spinning, i'm in the daze, i feel isolated, don't wanna communicate, i take a shower, i will scour, i will run..... find peace of mine, the happy mine, i onced owned, yeah !

i'll keep searching, deep within my soul, for all the answers, don't wanna hurt no more, i need peace gotta feel at ease, need to be... free from pain, going insane my heart aches, yeah ! "

Never Ever by All Saints..

LUAHAN HATI DAN PERASAAN !

2009-10-17T05:13:00.000-07:00

kao selalu membuat aku tersenyum.
bile aku ternampak kao,
pasti ku kan tersenyum dan ketawa,
inikah cinta sejati ??
aku tidak mengerti !!
aku tidak suka bercinta, kerana cinta itu merugikan
dan akan membuatkan kita sakit pada suatu hari kelak !!
aku pasrah dgn ketentuan ini !!
apakah yg harus ku lakukan.
kau seperti bunga yg mengembang mekar,
tapi aku pula seperti ombak yg selalu bergelora !
tidak akan aku jatuh hati pada kau,
aku tidak boleh jatuh hati pada kau,
kerana pengalaman yg lalu mengajar ku erti sebenar cinta !
aku sememangnya lemah dan tidak berdaya,
cukup2 lah...

tetapi,
bila aku berjumpa kau kemudian hari,
aku seolah2 berase seperti di awang- awangan,
senyum hingga ke pipi, ketawa sampai tak bersuara,
kao muncul dlm hdp aku skrg,
seperti tiada hari lain dan tahun kau akan muncul !
aku seperti tergila-gila kan kao,
tetapi aku tidak,
itu hanyalah mainan hati, jiwa remaja,
kerana sememangnya aku lemah utk bercinta.

kao sering buat aku tersenyum.
dgn lawak jenaka kau yg bersahaja,
kao sering buatkan aku rase dihargai,
dgn adanya kata2 seperti mghormati dan seolah2 mnjaga aku(protective)
kao juga sering buat aku terkilan,
dengan gurauan manja yg kao lemparkan kepada aku
kao sering buat kan aku menangis juga,
kerana......
entah la.
sukar utk digambarkan dengan kata2 perasaan ku ini !!
;))

ntah ape2 ntah. baco jo lah !

2009-10-10T20:20:00.000-07:00

err,
aku ade kenal ngn sorg budak nih, (eh, 2 kot)
hahaha,
budak uh agak sewel skit ye!
eh budak ke ??
umor da tue ! er, tue dari aku la skit. skit je. 18 ot umor dorg !
tp yg pastinye,
dorg ni senantiase buat aku ketawe,
memg klaka sial dak2 nih !
aduyai.
tengok aku pon da jd gile da skarang mcm dorg !
huh,
aku tertarik jugak la ngn dorg nih !!
huhu
yg paling penting mreka2 nih ske sgt ckp aku budak kcik !!
kenape ??
aku ni kcik sgt ke ??
hahah,
ape daa~
aku pon ape lg,
calling2 dorg dak besa !
haha
equal en. pggl aku dak kcik, aku pggl dorg dak besa !
err, gile,
sme dak besa gile.
tp sronok, hari2 ku indah dgn kehadiran mereka di sekeliling !
huhuh.
=.=

JAQ menggedik !!

2009-09-27T03:50:00.000-07:00

hahah,
aritu aku jmpe jaq, pastu dye kate,
'hey wan, ko da berisi skit, '
lantas ku menyangkal statement itu dengan mengatakan dengan selamba,
'woi babi, setan je mulut ko en, betul ke do ??'
err,
lepas tu, dye ajak aku pegi tengok wayang,
wah, happy nih !!
aku, ko tao jela, teruje na mati la en,
lagi pun aku da lame ta keluar jalan2 ngan member2,
last aku keluar bebuke puase aritu ngn geng rakan mde klas 4bs1,
jhaha,
so,
tetibe, story dye,
si lahanat tu, berkate...(eh, dlm msg )

jaq ; wea kaw btol err nak tgok wyg sok ??
azwan ; ha'ah, btol la, asal ??
jaq ; wea, aku tade duit la nak tgok wyg, aku nak gi cc je esok ! lgpon ko nak pg lambat en,
azwan ; laa, babi la kao,.
jaq ; sory, aku ta dapat ikut,
azwan ; setan la, jom la,
jaq ; yg ko ni, nak pakse2 apsal ?? aku tade duit la nak tgok wyg, laen la kalu ko support aku.
azwan ; ala, pegi jela.
-end-

15 minit kemudian....

azwan ; babe, jom la pegi ??
jaq ; ala, aku tade duit la, kalu ko support bole arh.. hehe
azwan ; ala jom la pegi, ko kate aritu nak en,
-end-

20 minit kemudian.. aku msg lagi,

azwan ; babe, jom laa,, pegi,
jaq ; err, kao ni knape ?? aku tade duit laa,
azwan ; ala, kalu camtu kte pegi jalan2 jela, tade tgok wyg, nak ??
jaq ; nak.
azwan ; err, setan je kao. haha oke, kte pegi au, jejalan jep, ala aku na tgok wyg la, jom la.
jaq; oi aku tade duit la, ajwan,,
azwan ; oke la, kte pg au sok, jejalan jep.
-end-

pastu, conversation brsmbg lagi dgn sesi mengumpat. haha.
memg lahanat je en dak uh,
akhirnye, melepas la aku nak tgok wyg, aiseymen..
aishh, err,
ape2 pon, aku tetap sayang ko la do, walau cemane kuang aja pon mlt ko, tgok mlt aku pon da mempantat mcm ko, walau cemane kao act, aku tetap sayang ko sampai mati, hahah

-harap maaf kerana ayat2 saye sememangnya agak kurang sopan dan tdk bertauliah, yg carutan2 itu harap diabaikan, jauhkn drpd kanak2 bwh 12 tahun ketika membaca blog ini, jhaha-

p/s ; jaq = gusman.

OHH GOD ! crap,

2009-09-08T08:57:00.000-07:00

Vera Zvonareva lost the match on US Open to Flavia Penetta.
crap !
i hated to see it !
i hope she can performed better that day !
ala lgpun she suffer difficulties during the match disebabkan kecederaan yg di alami !
damn !
its okay,
i like penetta too.
lol.

during the match,
she wins the first set then lose in the second set with, 7-6.
then later in the last set she lose 6-0 to Penetta !
hahah,
whatever la !
already gone,
huhu
but its okay Zvonareva,
i am still ur huge fan !
lol.

in the other hand..
i like the way the championship goes,
where does every top ranked tennis player lose in the US Open,
we could see bye2.
from the first ever leaving the championship
*Ana Ivanovic ranking no. 11, lose in the 1st round !
then,

*in the 2nd round,
Elena Dementieva 4,
Jelena Jankovic 5, are leaving.
later in the 3rd round..
Maria Sharapova 29,(but she still the top player)
Dinara Safina 1,
Victoria Azarenka 8,

*4th round,
Venus Williams 3,are then leave US Open too.

so,
we're could have seen only the number 2 seed, Serena Williams,
number 6, Svetlana Kuznetsova,
and number 10 Flavia Penetta who just eliminated Zvonareva earlier.
hahah
whereas,
pencabar2 lain yg tdk kurg hebatnye,
move on to quater-finals are,
young american 17 years old Melanie Oudin who just kalahkan
Dementieva in 2nd round n Sharapova in 3rd round.
also Petrova number 12 seed in 4th round !
gosh !
that oudin are awesome,
she plays well, she great during every match she faced !!
i hope she could win this championship because theres no presence of big name in the game left ! theres only "them"
hahah,
ou back to the point,
Selain Oudin,
Li Na from China,
Kim Clijters from belgium
and the person that mentioned earlier.
and the other, i have no idea !
hahah
antara kvitova n wickermayer,
kuznetsova n wozniacki !
huh !
sape la win US Open this season kan.
hahah
wait n see !
lol.

hey2
amacam ngn lelaki pnye match lak ??
hahah
yg i tau,
my favourite Andy Murray move on to the 4th round
but sadness comes,
when Gilles Simon tarik diri sbb saket kaki, salah urat ot !
pape jela.
mari kite ramai2 nonton every single match,
supaya kte always updated !
lol.
walaubagaimanapun..
Andy Murray n Melanie Oudin !
yay !!

CONFESSION OF THE OTHER KID JUST BORN !

2009-09-01T09:47:00.000-07:00

"...She used to be my only enemy and never let me free

Catching me in places that I know I shouldn't be,
Every other day I crossed the line,
I didn't mean to be so bad,
I never thought you would
become the friend I never had.

I didn't want to hear it then but
I'm not ashamed to say it now,
Every little thing you
said and did was right for me,
I had a lot of time to think about,
about the way I used to be,
Never had a sense of my responsibility

Back then I didn't know why,
why you were misunderstood,
So now I see through your eyes,
all that you did was love.."

2009-08-18T04:34:00.000-07:00

Pabila Hatiku Berkate..

tau tak ape perasaan seseorg uh kalu org yg dye minat, minat kat org lain.. i tak tao la nak describe feeling mcm mane ?? but sincerely, i memg suke someone.. neither a girl nor a boy.. its ?? rahsie.. malas nak ckp psl dye bnyk2 ?? dye ntah ske i err tak en ?? entah la.. but LIDYA.. i love u.. lol, i rase dye tak ade la ske i pon.. maybe i aje yg over-react (like selina said) lol.

cemane nak tau dye ade ske kat kite er tak hah ?? mghadapi jln kebuntuan ni ?? apakah yg harus ku lakukan.. dye ni misteri tao. kgkdg dye ok, kgkdg tak ! ntah kenape ntah..
and
i like the way she lipat the tudung.. comel, huhu
and ntah ape la yg wat kan i ske kat dye ! maybe prangai dye kot..lalala~
crush2..

GENERAL..

2009-07-29T08:37:00.000-07:00

i was pretty curious about what am i suit into..

meaning, i can't easily detect what are my interests like, my favourites...

lol.

so what am i trying to say is.. i love everything..

and my favourites are many..!!

i love polka dots and stripes..
and i freakin' thrilled by retro, classic, vintage, 50's also 80's..

eh2 wait...

lupe lak nak bgtau..

foa !

my name azwan zahadi..

was born in 1993 on 16 june..

macam ust. Kash said.. cantik nombor...

lol.

sampai skrg ust. Kash da aim aku

bab tak sembahyang subuh punye pasal..

at least, i jujur..

lol.

am such a typical person, annoying, n quite boring sometimes..

lebih2 lagi ngan org yg tak rapat sgt..

kalu nak... pandai2 la ngorat..

perhaps later bole jd bestie kew..

lol.

kalu rapat..

amek kao.. bnyak ckp nnti..

sampai bsok pon tak abes.. u know!!!

am into whatever music..

since i was thrilled by classic and 80's

so i like the songs from the era n the genre..

like jazz, pop dance, n rock n roll..